#242, 10 March 2005

Absolutely nothing interesting happened since the last update. Jaur got married, though. This week, we'll examine a particularly amusing Livejournal. brigheyez4alwyz brings all the hilarious aspects of white trash to the upscale neighborhood known as the internet:

Well, my dad decided to call for the first time in three years today.

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I want his attention. We even talked about graduation. I told him I was going to send him an invitation and he said he wouldn't come because my mom would put him in jail. That's crap, my mom isn't going to do all that on my graduation day. Even though the police are looking for him I have the choice on whether or not he goes. I think he deserves to because of all the things he's done to me in the past 18 years. For everytime he hit me, said things to hurt my feelings, or lied to me, he deserves a year in prison. In that case he'd have a million years in prison. But, my graduation day isn't going to be the day.

If there was a warrant out for my dad's arrest, I know the first thing I would do is post about it on the internet. And after that I would end it all.

Ok, well as most of you people pretty much know, I have this constant thought of killing myself. No matter what I do it won't go away. I've even thought about how I would do it and if I decided to leave a note what it would say. I think I seriously need some help. I tried talking to my mom yesterday and I told her exactly how I felt and she told me that I was just feeling sorry for myself and that I was only thinking about myself. THAT IS BULLSHIT!!!

But hey, whenever I'm feeling down, I just post some lyrics and then my day is all sundrops and puppy-dogs.

By the way, I found this song that I really really like and I just thought I would put it in here. It explains a little about how I feel. To my mother, to my father,It's your son or it's your daughter, Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me? Should I turn this up for you? I sit locked inside my head Remembering everything you've said This silence gets us nowhwere! Gets us nowhere way too fast! The silence is what kills me I need someone here to help me But you don't know how to listen And let me make my decisions All your insults and your curses make me feel like I'm not a person And I feel like I am nothing but you made me, so do something 'Cause I'm fucked up because you are Need attention, attention you couldn't give I sit here locked inside my head Remembering everything you've said This silence get us nowhere!Gets us nowhere way to fast Yeah, I guess you could say that was towards my mom.

Keep reaching for that rainbow, Kasi. Maybe some day you can be a truck stop waitress.

Since I'm a masochistic bastard, I've decided to learn C++. Blur from Megacityone recommended Dev-C++, and it seems to be pretty useful so far.

NetStat Live is a pretty nifty connection monitor.

SSI has the greatest collection of shredding videos ever. It eats a boat. AN ENTIRE FUCKING BOAT.

The Zombie Infection Simulation is almost hypnotizing. Except near the end, when there's usually just one room full of uninfected humans and it takes 15 minutes for the zombies to make it through the single narrow hallway without just turning around for no reason at all.

Usually I find poorly-produced horror movies to be amusing. In the case of "MANOS" THE HANDS OF FATE, I couldn't even finish reading the review without falling asleep and drooling all over my keyboard.



We're going to have bumper stickers some time soon. Check the thread on 17chan for more information.

Cubehead wrote a Rubik's Cube solution guide and I was too lazy to convert it to HTML.